Vacation’s Over

Heading back to Seattle today. Leaving the beautiful weather, house, and beach behind. Missing everyone already.

2 weeks ago  /  0 notes

The Importance of What’s Matter

I don’t really write in this often do I? I tend to post pictures quotes and random shit, but never write.

Well, regardless if this is even read its important to me to take a few minutes on my vacation to wordsmith something that’s been eating at me.

The importance of What’s Matter.

Over my entire life I’ve dedicated more energy to things and people then I will ever get back. It’s how the universe works in reality. Everything moves towards disorder in the cosmos, so why should it be different here. Most people would, who are completely honest with themselves, would agree that they take in more energy from others than they put out. So their net E level is positive. The rest of the population, of which I feel I’m more on the side of (marginally), dole out the feel goods and energy in droves, so our net E level is negative… But is it?

I find that I get a resounding feeling of satisfaction by giving. Granted I’m not the most wealthy person so my gifts sometimes are regifted or free… Or gifts that arent tangible… But I do provide a number of people I kno and love with an unending stream of gifts. Some get my time, others my love, some get a good giggity-ing, but everyone gets something (at least I try and make sure).

But the at some point I realized that I’m wasting myself. I’m wasting my E on people that are black holes of sorts. They ravenously feed on whatever they are given and in return they grab you and begin to draw you in more, sucking more and more E from you until you realize you’ve crossed the event horizon and entered the point of no return. For the rest of your apparent life you are bound to this massive object in space, swinging around it at dizzying speeds so as to not fall in and be crushed into a thousand tiny bits.

It takes a remarkable object to bend time and space so incredibly severe that it traps you. The more E you put into it, the more it wants, and the less E you put into it the closer you come to falling into oblivion.

But this isn’t reality. This is consciousness. This isn’t physics. It’s love (or an equatable feeling of lesser but still important value - like drunk).

So are we bound? Should we not just be able to fly off into space? But for that you’d need more E than you can muster. Well some people have an extra storage of E that can be blasted inwards, increasing their speed and allowing them to get further and further from the core of the ravenous vortex. Some people need to rely on other near by bodies in space to get an extra kick. The result is somewhat the same. You become free.

You zoom faster and farther than you ever thought you could and it’s taking less E than you could have realized. From your high vantage point about the curved space around the black hole you realize how trapped you were. You watch matter swirl around it, becoming increasingly excited and bright, giving its energy freely and willingly as it carnies into an unknow void of darkness and density. But you’re safe. And you realize for the first time you’ve never seen it from this perspective before. You’ve only ever seem it from the blinding light of super heated gas as you spun closer and closer to Armageddon. You see clearly where you made your mistakes of getting too close to the horizon. You can cll out to other bits of matter, warning them not to stray to close.

Your in a safe orbit.

And you look up; out away from the black hole.

And the luminescents of billions of stars and galaxies meets your eyes and you realize that there are far better places to spend your energy in the universe.

But there are other black holes, negative E people, who lurk beyond your site. The important thing is to recognize the tug of their pull early enough to avoid falling down that hole.

I didn’t proof read this but I’m sure I got my point across with no spelling errors.

2 weeks ago  /  0 notes

All my bags are pack… I’m ready to go

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